Welcome to Tilly's Neverending Story!

After much deliberation, I've decided to return to the world of blogging! My original page Fairytale Of Social Anxiety had actually started to gain a small following but after a very regretful altercation with a friend over some of it's content, I decided to delete everything on the site.

Since then, I've created and deleted so many blogs that I've lost count. Nothing ever managed to feel as open, and special as FOSA did, and I lost my way a little. Both with writing and out in the real world. It was always my escape from the challenges I was facing in everyday life, but bit by bit I found I wasn't sure of who I was anymore. Ironically, looking back at it now, I didn't have a clue of my identity during the FOSA years either, but it felt like I did at the time. I believe that the social anxiety and depression had clouded the side of myself that I genuinely liked, and I got used to being a subdued and unopinionated shell of the girl I used to be. 

Now, don't get me wrong, I still have coping mechanisms. My room remains my safe haven, as it always has, and always will. Literature transports me to an alternate world, where I can lose myself and find solace in the company of likeminded people who believe in happily ever afters. Music and writing will forever continue to be my emotional outlets, and I still find myself wishing that certain characters from TV shows and movies could be real, so that I'd have someone to share all of this with - in particular Buffy, Xander and Willow, of course. 

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I'm by no means an open book. I don't like verbally sharing my thoughts about my personal life, and that's never going to be something that I do. There's only one person that I am comfortable doing that with, and I'm sure it will remain that way. However, doing it through writing is a whole different story. There are some things I wouldn't dare share on a blog, but if it's in regards to anxiety/depression and letting other people see that their quirks are to be adored and not something to be ashamed of then I'm all for it. Heaven knows if we can't embrace them then we'll just go downright mad - or at least madder than before!

I also want this blog to be a place where we can escape from all of that, and delve into our obsessions. Everyone has that little something that helps, and as mentioned before, for me it's solitude, literature, lyrics and cinematography! It may not be everyone's cup of tea, but for me it's the world. 

Tilly's Neverending Story will be a place for reality, but above all, it will be a place where we can fly away from it.